I am finally learning how to travel. When I am in these little towns (like here in Delta Junction), I can actually just flow with whatever is going on and still do my own thing. I can pretty much ignore everyone around me (that’s what you have to do when you are constantly moving and being around lots and lots of new people all the time).
This is excellent because then I can TOTALLY FOCUS on what really interests me (instead of focusing on what interests other people and on social manners). When you live in a little town like this one (Delta Junction), you HAVE TO be polite and have social behavior that doesn’t harm or bother others.
It’s what we learn when we are mothering: we can never behave in ways that would threaten our kids. We have to constantly placate others unless we want to make our paths harder and endanger our kids. I no longer have to do that.
My days now include singing. Every morning (usually, it’s in the morning), I practice singing songs that I love and that I have on my iPod. They are (for now):
Pledging My Love (Creole Zydeco Farmers)
You Know That I Love You (same as above)–I have to get Cajun words to this song.
Daddy, Won’t You Please Come Home (Annette Hanshaw [Katie Tait in Whitehorse turned me on to this])
Frank Mills (from Hair [my original a cappella song])
Mirame (in Spanish) and Girlie Girlie (Blondie)
Even Cowgirls Get the Blues (Rodney Crowell song; I like The Highwaymen’s version: Johnny Cash, Willie Nelson, Waylon Jennings)
Better Man (KebMo)
Other songs I sing, but just for fun:
Johnny Be Good (Chuck Berry: the master)
Give Me a Reason (Pink–she’s too good for me to imitate now; song’s hard for me to sing)
Stand By Me (Prince Royce version; I’d like to learn more of his songs in Spanish)
Want to learn:
I Want a Cowboy Sweetheart (any version for now)
Sherlock (BBC): “Who cares about decent? The game, Mrs. Hudson, is on!”
What is a LOVER? Someone who lets people fall in love with them (and, in fact, encourages/helps people fall in love with them). I did this for many years. It may also be called “flirting,” a rather unfamiliar concept to Aspies. Yet, I think I have been doing this for a long time, but I saw it as loving and being loved by others.
In Alaska, men-following-their-own-interests (which often means their independent projects and their fantasies of being tough guys: hunters, woodsmen, independent and self-sufficient men, etc.) apparently, from what my informants (!) have told me, does not benefit of their families (i.e., wife and kids). These men are living for themselves, and their wives have to pick up the slack. If they don’t, the families fall apart.
Only social outsiders (like me) are truly accepted and trusted by Native People. I hear that the Caucasian majority and the Natives mostly live harmoniously “side by side.” When subsistence issues (hunting, fishing, and Native rights) come up, the communities become divided and fighting occurs.
Katie John who just died in Anchorage was an Ahtna. That’s a branch of the Athabascans. Lucia told me a lot of this on our drive from Tok to Delta yesterday. She used to teach (and live, part time) in Dot Lake, which is one of the many little Native villages around here.
My story is The Ugly Duckling. I finally discovered that I am a swan and not an ugly duckling at all. I see wild swans on ponds up here. Unbelievably beautiful.
Still taking cold showers. My new CS host, Sondra, lives on her 40 acres in Delta Junction. She’s a construction worker and is (also) building her own house (half of the house was there when she bought the property). Fortunately, no one around here cares how others look. It is decidedly NOT a fashion show up here.
Delta Junction’s army base is some kind of missile defense thing and its population is small. Delta was settled in the 1940s and people here do farming and raise cows. You can see horses here (but not in Tok).
My favorite CS hosts are often unique people (people who have chosen or been forced into [and come to accept] unusual paths) or artists or social outsiders (or all 3). The Native People (like most minorities everywhere) don’t trust members of the Caucasian majority. Mainstreamers (of any group) are not really accepted by Native People. I am so glad I recognized myself long ago as NOT PART OF THE MAINSTREAM (both by temperament and by the conditions of my birth/childhood).
I am glad to be a social outsider, an American Traveller-Gypsy. This social position has both “good and “bad” consequences (all of which I accept). Opposing any majority always has SOME negative consequences. The benefits (to me and, formerly, to my children and, presently, to my grandchildren) offset any problems and disadvantages.
Delta Junction, Alaska
- White alone – 824 (86.0%)
- Hispanic – 45 (4.7%)
- Two or more races – 35 (3.7%)
- American Indian alone – 26 (2.7%)
- Black alone – 13 (1.4%)
- Asian alone – 11 (1.1%)
- Native Hawaiian and Other Pacific Islander alone – 4 (0.4%)